As I write this I am cup number 2 of coffee (new favorite Glazed Chocolate Donut) and have found out that yet another ex is married, I am pretty sure every ex I have ever had is in a serious relationship. I am just here being cool, drinking coffee and champagne, buying expensive clothes, and traveling the world.
Needless to say I am a hopeless romantic and let's stress the hopeless part because let's be honest, who wants to date someone who spends 75+ hours a month in the air and is rarely sure where she is, where she is going, or when she will be home. Now for the romantic part, well I want the flowers and the whole fairytale thing but I also want to be left alone sometimes so maybe I am just really confused on what a girl has to do to find her prince charming. I also refuse to kiss any frogs so that idea is a no go! But you have to ask what does a girl gotta do to get some consistency?
If you asked me, I would tell you that all I really want is someone who is constant, no mess, no confusion, just simple relationship. I realize that what I am looking for only exists in an alternate reality. Is it that hard to just like someone though and let that be enough? I don't think so, we are a society inclined to endless options, why have one when you can have two, always scared of commitment or connecting with someone too much, a fear of missing out fuels the egotistic and un-monogamous views of society. This is my downfall in the dating scene because I literally cannot talk to multiple people at one time, someone ends up slowly getting pushed out and then all my eggs are in one basket (no pun intended). But everyone else is doing it so why can't I figure out how to casually date till I find the one worth keeping around? I have never been a casual person, unless it comes to my wardrobe but even then you'll find me in a ball gown for brunch on occasion. So again I ask what's a girl gotta do?
If you asked me, I would tell you that all I really want is someone who is constant, no mess, no confusion, just simple relationship. I realize that what I am looking for only exists in an alternate reality. Is it that hard to just like someone though and let that be enough? I don't think so, we are a society inclined to endless options, why have one when you can have two, always scared of commitment or connecting with someone too much, a fear of missing out fuels the egotistic and un-monogamous views of society. This is my downfall in the dating scene because I literally cannot talk to multiple people at one time, someone ends up slowly getting pushed out and then all my eggs are in one basket (no pun intended). But everyone else is doing it so why can't I figure out how to casually date till I find the one worth keeping around? I have never been a casual person, unless it comes to my wardrobe but even then you'll find me in a ball gown for brunch on occasion. So again I ask what's a girl gotta do?
“Life is too damn short and [screwed] up to go through it silently loving someone and never telling them how you feel. [Screw] the consequences, [screw] the implications of the actions, to hell with it all… whatever happens as a result is better than the nothingness that is inevitable with silence.”
| — | Janis Joplin (via wordsnquotes) |
Then again being single, chugging champagne, and traveling the world has been pretty great thus far. At the end of the day I'm not going to settle for someone who thinks I'm anything less than extraordinary, better yet magical and if right now I'm the only one who see that then I would rather be single.
“This is not a girl who waits by the phone. This is a girl who picks up the phone and calls whoever she wants.”
| — | BJ Novak on Mindy Kaling (via woman-rebel) |
This could be forever, or it could go down in flames...(thank you Taylor for writing another song about me)
What's a darling to do?
xxx
B
What's a darling to do?
xxx
B
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